The Tale of My Derail-ment

So now the task of figuring out what to do with art... See, I went to school for art. Specifically for photography, but had a lot of drawing and painting under my belt too, and between 1994 and 2000 did very well with photography. Enough so that I didn't finish school, one reason being of course cuz the monies ran out, but also because I was working in the industry already. I was burned out by 23 from doing too many weddings. So I took a hiatus that almost never ended...
In the meantime, I picked up web and graphic design. A mix of self taught and vocational school in LA. I did well with that there. Very well in fact. Picked up many crafts too, began to love jewelry making. I just love working creatively with my hands. But then, again, put the web/graphics on hiatus for food. FOOD, yes, you read that right. Not just any food either, mind you. Vegan raw food. Huh? Well, it changed my life. Learned some cheffing skills, worked at a vegan delivery kitchen, and started to deliver my own raw food creations part time. Was putting serious thought and research into opening a cafe.

But life and marriage and motherhood managed to thwart my efforts, and I wound up doing non of the above. I temped and waitressed for awhile because you gotta do what you gotta do...

But the shit hit the fan in the meantime, and my marriage fell apart and I found myself leaving out of personal necessity. Now I'm on the coast I want to be on, but I'm totally lost in my career.

Do I paint? Do I photograph? Do I stick with web design? Jewelry making?

And the saddest part.... I'm rusty in all of the above. I seperated myself from the very things that give me life, make me breathe, make me ME... It would almost like being starting from scratch for whichever I choose. I'm 34. I know it's not too late to pick one and start over... but man, I was in a zone at one point or another for each of these things, and I've slid so far backward.

But things are looking up. My foundations are getting stronger, and with that in place I can then work on this. That is my purpose, and the main purpose of this blog; to document my progress for finding myself as an artist and becoming successful, as well as regaining the health I saw when I was eating and exercising a certain way.

I almost feel like I'm getting out of High School again, but this time I'm so much more UNfocused!

So I'm working on this. What am I going to do now that I'm divorced, in a new state, and in a new relationship? I'm employed, but not in art... So what am I going to do? Stay tuned...